As I contemplate the idea of moving forward and making my way out of this dark hole, I have come to realize that a good part of my core is missing. I as a person always chose to be reliable and found my strength in being a support. Over the past year, my actions have … Continue reading Step One
Month: August 2017
Belief
As I slowly pick through the rubble of my sub conscious, I realize a truth to me, a truth to my core. Somewhere in the last few years, my belief of the world has shaken and some part of it has imploded. I carried a belief that tied into my self-confidence and esteem. The belief … Continue reading Belief
Destiny
A very late Saturday night or a Sunday, very early in the morning always ends up as a time where the most animated conversations take place between me and my father. A little background about my father. He is and has been a very successful entrepreneur. He has made it large and of course I … Continue reading Destiny
Awaken
Under the shadow of death I have cried for many moons And seen the darkness in the night Falling prey to its monsters The insipid illusion of love Taking over my senses Making me useless In the face of my demons Death knocking on my door Relishing the idea of another soul Another one fooled … Continue reading Awaken
Pride
As I progress and keep pushing myself harder to attain a higher form of myself, I realize that I have to keep raising my standards, with respect to, people and my own actions. One of the toughest challenges is to define the fine line between ego and a cold calculative response, which is surprising, for … Continue reading Pride
The Yellow Pill
The colours of life Surrounding me For the red of love and the red of blood My eyes see passion But my mind is numb My ears hear affection But my soul is incapacitated A stoned effect Looks over my shoulder Causing me to feel nothing Nor feel my emotions The broken heart Tries to … Continue reading The Yellow Pill
Antidepressant
I never knew that my destiny involved a tryst with antidepressants! Yes, Dear Reader, I have finally taken the plunge. A plunge which is even today deeply criticised and looked down upon as a weakness. Can't really come back from that. Yes, I am weak, and I have no shame in admitting it. The above statement is … Continue reading Antidepressant
Strange
A certain sadness always haunts me. A sadness of time going by very quickly and the awareness that comes with it. It causes a certain anxiety of losing out, being pushed back ward and sense of losing hold on time. Guess even I am scared of getting old. Back when I was 16, I used … Continue reading Strange
A Tribute to Myself 